I never wanted to be a teacher ever since I knew what is the job description of a teacher. I was afraid that all the worst and not-so-good things I and my classmates have done to our teacher will also happen to me.
It was 2008 that I realize I wanted to learn something and do something that I cannot pin point. Then I realized I wasn't happy with my course that time even though I don't have any problems with it. It wasn't really for me so I decided to try something I didn't even know what's in it for me.
I was also like you, I also felt that I don't fit in my surroundings, I felt to be very uncertain of what I want to do with my life, I felt very insignificant to other people and to people who matters to me, I know the feeling of hopelessness, I felt very "bugo" "stupid" "idiot" that it led to to many failures, I know the feeling of being a loser, I know the feeling of being caged or no freedom, I felt neglected by the important people in my life, and I experienced tons of physical and emotional pain, can't-even-count-it failures, and unending problems of any variant.
Through the teachers, classmates, books, random people and time, I learned to be realistic. I learned to view situations and things with respect of what is the truth and reality because reality is constant but may differ. I am not a very optimistic person, but with that philosophy I learned to accept, understand, and respect things that I don't have any control over.
Live with it because it is your reality and truth, do not stop learning because if you will it is the time your soul and self dies, accept problems and struggles because it's part of your reality (you cannot escape it), learn how and when to hold on and let go on any things and situation, push yourself to grow wiser each day you overcome, it is okay be be confused and problematic from time to time but don't let it drown you and eat you alive, do not be afraid to explore and most importantly you must know and find yourself first to do what I have said above.
I am really happy that I can say that you, my students, have learned the things I wanted to learn when I was your age. I wanted you to face reality with confidence and say, "I can handle you because I know what are you and who I am".
If problems are really pulling you down, pull yourself together and carry on no matter what happens and whatever it takes for you to survive.
Salamat sa inyo kay sa mutu-o mo ug sa dili, naa koy nadiscover ug nakat-unan tungod sa inyoha. Daghan kug mga nakita na reyalidad nga lahi pa gyud sa akoa. (Thank you because believe it or not, I have discover and learned things through all of you. I've seen many realities that are different from mine.)
Proud kaayo ko sa inyuha, as in. Ug kabalo ko nga mas ma-proud pa gyud ko sa inyo sa sunod natong kita. Pero, timan-i nga dili sa tanang panahon dapat mupareha mo sa akoang gipangbuhat, kay lahi-lahi tag reyalidad sa kinabuhi. (I'm so proud of all of you, really. And I know I'll be more proud next time we see each other. But, remember that not all that time you do what I have done with my life because we have different realities in life.)
Find yourself.
~Ma'am Novie, happily signing off (as your teacher)
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